So, as you can most likely tell, I got out of my awful mood and my insomnia. Ash came over and we talked and laughed and i knew i was just being me and having a down kinda night. I realized something too, i hate being alone in the middle of the night. It scares me and i never knew why but i figured it out. Its because i'm alone with myself. I have nothing to take my mind off of...my mind. My thoughts go wild and my dreams get 10 times louder and its like i have this entire world in my head. Its a world that doesnt exist and i want it to so badly. And nobody seemed to understand why i wanted it and it was really frustrating.

*Sigh* anyway lets get on with this entry and get past the weird kind of inner-self exploring i just did.

I am watching this really really weird movie. Its called "Prey for rock and roll" or something. I rented it just for the hell of it because i didnt see anything else i liked and it had an actress in it that i liked. Yeah its strange. Too strange to get into details.

HEY! i got my letter from Drivers Ed today! Turns out i am signed up for the fall class. I start September 7th! Woohoo! Dude im so scared though. I am such a horrible driver. People try to tell me that im not that horrible and that i really just need to (insert pointer) but damn...personally i think i suck. I mean, in parking lots im fine but when i get on the road is spaz out. Im just a nervous wreck like that. Hopefully i'll be getting over that soon so i can passa and start driving. (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!)

Last night Andrew, my mom, Ash, and me all went for a walk up the road in the dark. It was fun. We got to the bustop and my mom wanted to turn back because the sun was almost gone but me and ash still wanted to walk so we ended up going all the way to the pond in the dark. I love walking at night. I'm thinking thats one reason people think i'm a vampire but you know what...i like it. lol.

So next week is warped tour! So excited for that. And my mom still doesnt know if she's up to bringing me to the 10 year reunion on the next day but i really want to. I didnt know that Rancid was going to be on it too! Plus GC is there and i am SO Good Charlotte concert deprived right now i can feel it in my bones. Not just good charlotte concert but ANY concert. I need one. Last time i went to a concert was Mest when i blacked out. Dang.

After that we are on our way to FLORIDA to see Chelsea and Jess and davey!!!!! I'm so excited. omg...We're going to look for boys with chelsea lol. Its gonna be great. And my mom is looking into renting a place right on the beach for a night and all the girls are gonna go stay there and walk on the beach in the morning to watch the sun rise. How awsome does that sound? I can't wait. I told Chelsea about my idea to take our picture with mickey mouse and make "rude gestures" right before the picture is snapped. "Delight!"

I'm writing the next chapter for toxickiss right now so i can finally get it on the page and get on with this story. Its too awsome to stop now and my computers working (sort of) again so i have nothing to hold me back. I'm also working on getting the word out on it to other SP and GC sites so we get more readers.

Alright thats all for now...

Later.

~Bitty

ps-Misti: thanks so much for your note. I love you to pieces.