Hearing: Rancid. Red Hot Moon.
Wearing: Green plaid pajama pants. My brothers huge gray hoodie. Blue striped toe socks. Used "Its our time to shine" shirt.
Hair is: Brownish/reddish. half up. (dying it tonight maybe. yay!)

Havn't updated in a while huh? My computer is just too much effort. And i've been so tired. It's probably not too healthy for me to keep feeling this way but everything just has been a huge rollercoaster lately. My emotions have gone into hyper mode or something. Everything in my life is changing in some way and i can't handle it all at the same time. Even worse...everything that i have always hated about my life is still there. I keep thinking that all i need to deal with all this shit is sombody....i just don't know who it is or where they are.

Ash wasn't at school yesterday...i hate when she's not there. It sucks. I talked to her on the phone after school and she said she was sick and that she would come over after school tomorrow (today.) Yeah....she didn't show up at school again today. Something is up with her and it really pisses me off that she doenst talk to me about anything anymore. It's like she doesnt even care about me anymore. I mean, i know she does, but she doesnt act it. She just expects me to always support her and be there for her and she's never there for me anymore. She's supposed to be my best friend and she still is but...something is wrong and she won't tell me about it at all.

So i failed the drivers ed final test. I needed an 85 to pass and i got a 65. I was pretty upset about it but a TON of other people failed too so i don't feel as bad. I have some major studying too do though. I hate all these stupid things i have to remember. Like what way to point your wheels when parking uphill with the curb on the right and how many feet to follow behind a school bus. JUST LET ME DRIVE! I'LL FIGURE IT OUT EVENTUALLY! FUCK. The retake is next wednesday. The day after the used concert. Yeah and i'm gonna be awake for that and all. *sarcasm if you didn't catch that*

After school today there was a bunch of people hanging out outside. It was freeeezing. and it was snowing. It was really fun though because everyone was incredibly strange for some reason. I guess just from the energy of it finally being friday. It was quite fun. I wish i had a video camera to get everyone screaming and dancing on tape.

Ash was supposed to be here tonight...but she's not now because...i don't even remember what she told me now. and Cass was gonna come over to do something but she never called so i guess she's not. And i'm alone. Again.

I have a ton of pictures to put up so i think i'm gonna do some of those and see if i have time to put them on.
I need some pasta salad too because im starving.

later.
-Itty Bitty

ps-The used concert is in 4 days and i'll be HAPPY for a few hours!